avianchild

Notes like raindrops at the base of my spine and I'm burning for this perfect dream Half the lights flashing, I can see your skin, your mouth your lips, your hands enveloping mine I can taste this performance tonight, smell you on me like freshly exhaled smoke, licking every tangible corner the taste of a setting sun from your mouth, the scratch of your face all at once a part of me, in every eyelet of my dress, the sweat pouring down my back I dreamt of you that night and every night since Sometimes, I pray for you, pressing the beads against my lips Dear God, bring me my dream so that I may love again

I loved the smile upon your face and the way you felt in my arms when you embraced me in the middle of that ice cream shop but I balked when from your lips poured the stories of your five year love affair in a swamp filled with lies and deceit but i told myself that perhaps this meant nothing it was just idle conversation you were just nervous You were just nervous and I loved the sound of your laugh the way you smelled in the humid air it begging for rain as i begged you to touch me and you did you did and you told me it felt right it felt right it felt right i felt that you felt right but you laughed at the surge in me the elec

You're pouring through the sockets of my eyes under cracks in my windows and doors you're in the rain dripping from the rooftops and the steps I take across the hardwood floors You're in the sweet breezes that follow me wrapped around limbs of dying trees you're stuck in the gaps of my stained teeth and in the bend of these naked, cold knees You're taking up space, filling holes in my brain nestled between last months and yesterdays you're branding my skin with ghostlike scars and your fingertips remain, lost in this haze You're running to catch the last train home hastily crossing a blurred yellow line you're a boarding pass, a fad

Haven't had warm skin pressed against mine In a bed clothed in cool, summertime sheets passed my fingers through the hair of my lover whose mouth is pressed to my neck not felt their breath on my being, their legs between mine, palm of my hand resting possessing the soft plains, delicious curves of their back, tongue wet and insistent in one thousand eight hundred twenty five days I will fall madly in love the moment I hold heaven in my arms once more

I want to be drunk in the slicing knife of winter's air My bottle blonde hair on my shoulders and my lips pressed against the frozen skin on the back of a stranger's hand And the morning will be scorned, my chest heaving as I purge all of yesterday, someone's fingers tangled in the mess upon my head I've no idea where I am and I've no care in the world because my mind is right where it needs to be And all the fears and silly worries are tucked into a sober bed Come now, we're finding happiness in the freedom of rum soaked dreams I'm living it, I'm living them all You say I have a problem, dear, but there exists no problem in endless poss

I'll hold onto the sweet moments while I can and tell myself that nothing good will come of worry, nothing good will come of doubt Even as the sun blazes in from the East and the moon hangs low in the night sky, the side of the bed you once occupied remains empty and cold I'll grasp at the corners of this wonderful world, reminding myself that in this place there was once love and perhaps there will be again, I say to the me in the mirror on a forlorn Sunday morning I am not alone, I am not alone and soon he'll come home and the paranoia will subside in waves of tantalizing relief I tell myself as the curtains remain drawn and the dus

We are put upon this planet, whole a single individual with so many purposes I wish we didn't sleep nor hadn't all these tasks to fulfill for the sun sets too quickly and the days all rush into one and there are so many people who own a piece of my time If I could, I'd clone myself, a hundred times over One, to watch the sun rise and set each day and night Never moving, never interrupted, I'll never forget Several more to embrace every potential lover, I'll simply kiss them and say, it doesn't matter, he, she, they have me too, I am everywhere, I can love you all One to idle my time away, another to read all of the books that I've wanted t

I breathe you in, wet air in my lungs your arms and fingers they curl and latch themselves, angry around my organs and I buckle, my knees to the slickened pavement My heart sits, cradled idly in a cavity in my chest, aching, beating as the air passes over it, my blood now entirely comprised of sweet sorrow and I hear regret rush through capillaries In my brain, electrical pulses scatter as you invade, thoughts of you, emotions for you, lobotomy it's all you, I've been taken over In my veins, this system, it forces you out and I coagulate, shutting down